Two beloved people in my life. next photo: Schlitterbahn waterpark(fun birthday weekend)
September is the month when i get to be another year older!!! I remember when i was in highschool i couldn't wait to be old and mature, i thought there is so much freedom and so many things i can do without anyones permission, which very holds true. Ever since i was a teenager i always have a mindset to be independent. As i wished and hoped for, "I became one" independently minded person today. I am proud and content of what i have turned into. Gratitude to my supportive parents who let me spread my wings and cross an island for college. I recalled it was a tough decision for them since i am the youngest and their most loved babygirl(wink). I held responsible for myself for four years and luckily i accomplished the only thing that my parents ever wanted for me to have which is a good EDUCATION. Wealth they can only provide as an average income couple.
As i look back, i'm still amazed with the years i've been through, not a lot of tough times, yet somehow the bad experiences overshadows the positive ones. More on personal family matters that seem to get me eventhough i'm not directly affected. But it's more hurtful when someone in your family is struggling emotionally. I am the type of person who likes to make people happy in every way i can possibly can. I would rather be the one hurting than seeing others(family)in sorrow and pain.
I can say my colllege years are the most memorable and meaningful time of my adult life. Now that i am here in a foriegn land, married and a mother to my son Matthew i couldn't help but feel blessed. Not with material wealth but with things that matters most to me. That is, "GENUINE LOVE", and emotional security. I know i can carry another bumpy ride for the next 20 years to come knowing that i am satisfied and very happy, shielded by boundless affection from my loved ones. Some moments i think about death, i cannot say if i wholeheartedly accepted the harsh reality that someday we are all gonna vanish from this world we live in. No one is ready. Yes i'm afraid, but who does'nt right? But when i look back again, i know i have done my mission and experiencing it right now. So what else can i ask?
Who knows? in my own simple world, i have EVERYTHING at 30.
